Suggestions, The last chapter: I saw you in my dreams

 

Through my dreams you shall see, the pain that I lurked, the things that I’ve seen, and never survived, lots of thorns wrapped around the vines of my heart, letting no one in, hardly anyone, but you, amongst all, could access, could embrace how ugly I was, how ugly I might’ve became, you could witness the monster that I hid, deeper in the will where water dried and sounds echo.

Suggestions, Chapter four: Where peace lingers

 

Within time, we fathom that one of our permanent allies was forever a quiet nemesis, gloating at us in silence, loathing every breath we exhale,

and dragging us into the furthest depths, where no scream can shatter glass, but only able to shatter our hearts, it drags us deep into a void, where you no longer recognize yourself anymore, maybe, you should’ve given up that cursed friendship, maybe, it’s all your fault; the fault of becoming a maimed version of yourself, or… Maybe, you should try sticking to the walls where your sorrow sink, and climb up your veins until you reach the summit, on which you can see the bigger picture and finally, escape…

My depression journey

 

Before I decide visiting my psychiatrist
I've been hearing sentences like "you need an urgent help", "your texts are so melancholic", "why are you locking yourself up in your room", "please tidy your bed", "you're being too lazy lately", last but not least, I became more weary and my abilities decreased
I had troubles studying, focusing on my objectives and exploiting my skills, I've been exerting too much and recieving so little, I was brutally poisoned throughout many phases of my life and I was totally neglecting my agony for years, the reason why I suffered physical pain, likewise, psychological ...

Borderline diary

Hello, your favorite borderline has come again 

It's been a tough time 

Full of mood swings and yet still

Full of fights with everyone 

A relapse

 

She looked through the ceiling as she was looking into a void,

she lost all her senses again,

The basket baller

 

If I would choose a line or a slogan for my life it wouldn't be otherwise transparency.

No one actually sees me or insinuate a positive intention towards me... everyone is skipping my name during hangouts and my name is totally ignored except for sports timing...

A cat rescued an addict!

 

what if a little cat was a reason why a drug addict quit and start a serious detox without relapse!?

"James Bowen" was an English musician who plays in streets and exploit traffic to earn money for living,

whereas he was paying his revenues only for buying drugs,

but one day he made a pact for his treater that he would give up addiction and turn his deterioration into a fine uplifting,

Depression

 

My speech is mainly based on arguments about "committing suicide "
Whereas it's been always a sensitive content to pose among people 
And everyone was withdrawing from it if possible 
Therefore they let the ignorance spread more and more 
Avoiding the facts beyond suicidal thoughts or depression in general...

A revive

The same 8 years old girl still meditate at night, gaze at the moon and tells it her darkest secrets, intentions and plans ...

 

The same 8 years old girl still sense the cold breeze and enjoys it during autumn neutral climate...

Same girl enjoys the train whistle,  the dust scent and the crickets sounds

same girl enjoys the darkness, music and the field of possibilities...